Changes:

I have turned from an informal, skint memory blogger into a formal, paid corporate writer. I have turned from an avid, enthusiastic traveller into someone who has forgotten what it is like to not have to wear shoes. I have turned from someone who can see the big picture to someone who is stuck in the frame. I have gone from a size 8 to a size 12 - OK so its not on the same page, but basically: I have turned from someone who would trek up a mountain a day, to someone who is sedentary for 8 hours each day. Perhaps more. I am still a dreamer, I am still hopeful. I am still a glass half full person, or trying my best to be anyway. I have turned from a happy, sometimes confused singleton into a happy, sometimes confused girlfriend. I have moved from my chaotic family home into a small, unchaotic flat. I have learned to have confidence in myself, my work and my opinion in the world of work. I have learnt that being the oldest and the wisest is not important, but being young of heart, young of mind, and wide-eyed about the world is essential to change, and to great ideas, and great people. I have learnt to treasure time, and that I do not want to waste my time on certain things, people, emotions or situations. I have learnt new things about myself, about my friends and about what is important. I have found a new friend. I am learning to let go of old, broken things that do not need to be fixed but need to be binned. I haven't yet worked out what it is I am going to be doing with the rest of my life, or which of my many ridiculous crazy ideas will actually work, which one I will try to make work. But I am lucky enough to have these ideas. And I am lucky enough to have this life. I haven't worked out what I will even be doing next year, but I just want to be doing something that I love. I don't ever want to be caught in this slog cycle of boredom every day just to gain money. Money to do things, to travel, to start the ideas, to get things done. We all know, or should know that we are capable of whatever it is we set our minds too, whatever we believe we are good enough to achieve. My issue is, I am not sure what it is that I want to do, to achieve or be. So I am not sure what to believe in yet. I'm probably going to just keep working on who I am. You can only move on when you see where it is you want to be instead, after all. The saving starts now, and the dreaming of course too.