Thursday, December 23, 2010

'God has seen what you have done'

So weve finished the playground! Its all painted, sanded, cleaned and fresh. The ground has been cleared of all the class, metal and dangerous things that the kids could have stood on. Its done!

It took a week of hard graft everyday, in the boiling sunlight in order to finish it, but its done. it might not be much but its something, and having us 12 girls there playing music and chatting all day, painting this boring playground with the brightest colours we could find has made a huge difference to the atmosphere here. The mental patients on the other side were all dancing with us to Bob Marley who turned out to be their favorite artist of the ipod! You actually wouldnt believe it but this old lady was bobbing around waving her arms in the air and singing to 'jammin' it was pretty special!!!

Everyday the nuns have been bringing us tea and homemade cake or buiscuits at 4.30, making us all sit down and telling us 'thank you' a million times, repeating that God has seen all our hard work, and that they are so proud of us. Thanking us on behalf of the children, saying how good it has been for the older ladies to have us there everyday, how much they have enjoyed it - how much they will miss us.

It was really sad to leave the orphanage but when we did it was with really mixed emotions.... I was told two stories, one which made me so so happy and the other which really upset all of us working at St Theresas.

On the last day we were told that Dash, Peroni and Prianka had been adopted! And that their new families would be coming to get them in the next 6 months! Amazing!! They of course didnt understand what this meant but i just knew that this meant these kids could get out! they had a chance at normal life, with a family!  Unfortunatly just after we were told this, we were also told pinkie's story of how she ended up in the orphanage. To cut it short, she was originally brought to the nuns by her mother, who asked them to take her in. The nuns refused, Pinkie was only minorly disabled, her mum could cope and they knew it. they had a lot of kids to look after and wanted pinkies mum to try a bit harder before they took her away.

a few days later pinkie showed up on the doorstep of the orphanage in a plastic bag. she was covered head in bruises, and now blind, partially deaf, unable to swallow, unable to move. The nuns realised that the mother had done this so that they had no choice but to take her in. Her mum is the reason that Pinkie cannot walk, talk, see, hear properly or move. no wonder she has the muscle spasms, or freaks out and tenses when she is picked up - she cant see, and im  pretty sure you wouldnt trust anyone after being thrown around enough to cause a disabitlity.
I found it pretty difficult to understand why her mum would of done this. fair enough if you cant look after her, if you dont have enough money, patience or time. but why not just leave her outside without fucking the rest of her life for her? why not have just left her there, without having to have beat her literally senseless? Because now, she doesnt even have the choice to leave. she is in there forever.

I dont think I will ever be able to understand how a mother could do that. I guess if what the nuns said is right 'God has seen what you have done' then i dont have to understand it. its been seen, and judged already.

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