Pinkie

The Sisters at Mother Theresa Orphanage don't know how old Pinkie is, she was left outside the gates by her parents when she was only a baby. I think that they couldn't cope with her problems, or maybe just didn't understand them. Pinkies eyes dart around the room when you talk to her, as if she is trying to see you but the room is dark. She is completely blind, and also partially deaf. This was hard for me to imagine as having those two senses taken away from me is my worst nightmare... but she also has some kind of body spasms.... she can't sit up and because she is deaf and blind all the pregnant moms who come to help out haven't ever bothered to teach her because they have so much else to do.

Pinkie is around 4 years old, can't see, can't hear and can't even control her body. All she does, all day is lie in her crib crying. No-one picks her up, hugs her or talks to her. No-one makes her feel that she is safe. All they do is ignore her. All day. Were not meant to take photos, but we managed to get one of me and Pinkie and when I upload it you will understand why my heart broke when I saw that little girl.

When I went to go over and pick her up her neck was so stiff and so heavy I literally had to carry her like a wooden plank, she was soaked through as she had wet herself and she had clearly been lying in wet knickers for a while. We changed her, and I tried to calm her down by stroking her face and hair..... the biggest smile came onto her face, it completely made my day. All she needs is a bit of care and attention, someone to hold her and not ignore her all day because they have better things to do. All she needs is someone to adopt a child who has a disability because they can provide her with a better standard of life than what she gets now, they can actually give her a life. It hurt to know it wasn't that the Sisters didn't want to help, its just that they can't. They can't afford treatment for her, they can't afford a carer. They can't afford the right medicine so that when she sobs the pain from her muscle spasms actually goes away for a while.... all I want to do is bring her home. Even if I didn't care for her, she would be so much better off in a care home in Jersey then she is there, even that would help. It is going to be so hard to leave her on next Friday because every day now i go in and call her name she smiles and her eyes flash around like she is trying to find me. I have literally fallen in love with that girl and it is going to take a few serious words from my mum for me not to come back to India on the way home and bring her back.